Something More Than Passion

I like to think of myself as highly extroverted although some might say using the word ‘highly’ is an over-exaggeration. Nevertheless, the point I am trying to make is that I thoroughly enjoy being around people and not only that, but I derive a lot of my energy from my external environment. Some might even say I am PASSIONATE.
I always use that word to describe myself because it is synonymous with a character of impact and ambition. However, what happens when your passion is just not enough? What happens when the people around you feel draining or you begin to feed into the whispers of loneliness? This is not an extrovert problem. This is life!
There will be times where self-generated passion is just not enough and the place where excitement once resided becomes filled with complacency, discouragement and even anger towards people especially after trying seasons. I found myself in that place recently where ‘passion’ could not overcome my frustration. My frustration about my flaws crowded my mind. My insecurities and past disappointment from relationships with people had affected my perspective of life and my thoughts of people. I didn’t realise that my passion for people, for change and even for Jesus was tainted. I had forgotten how to love.
1 Corinthians 13 talks about love in length but the verse that gripped me the most was verse seven:
“Love bears all things [regardless of what comes], believes all things [looking for the best in each one], hopes all things [remaining stead fact in difficult times], endures all things [without weakening]” AMP
From reading this, I realised that passion is an engine that needs continuous fuelling and in the case of life, that fuel is love, and if God is love, ultimately that fuel is God. It is so easy to get frustrated in life such that your trust issues of the past resurface, you find it hard to see the best in people or you don’t have the patience to carry on. All of a sudden, what was once passion is darkened by criticism, discouragement and worry? I have been there. What we need is not a dose but a good drench in God’s untainted, never ending love to direct our passion and restore us to purpose- to be children of God.
I think David could school us all in this. He said the only thing he asked or sought were to dwell in Gods house, behold God’s beauty, inquire of Him and meditate in His temple (Psalm 27:4). All these things can be summarised in just drawing close to Jesus and experiencing his unfailing and sustaining love that covers the multitude of sin, casts out fear and fuels our passion for life. Maybe what we don’t need is an inspirational talk, a sign from heaven or a tub of ice cream. Maybe we just need to bask in a love that draws us close to our creator and transform us to be more like Him so that an all-consuming, never ending fire burns in us and this fire is sustained by a never ending love not a self-generated one. This means we need to invite the Holy Spirit to baptise us in His fire that we learn to love and be loved because “nothing self-generated is sustainable”. I am human. I get tired sometimes and like everyone else, I need the Spirit to burn away anger in me, burn false humility, burn fear of disappointment and ignite faith, hope and most of all, L O V E. this love is patient enough to walk with someone in need, does not keep record of wrongs so can forgive continuously and does not rely on passion but instead fuels passion to be all about Jesus- the one who loves overwhelmingly and consistently.
I am trying to follow in David’s footsteps in this and everyday I come again to lay down all my perspectives and hype to just be still and know that this insane love is mine to enjoy and share. Joy starts to burn away all my insecurities and I remember that I am a light ready to take position and shine on everyone that doesn’t know the power of the love of God as I simultaneously take the position of a warrior and a daughter of God. I suggest everyone else do the same.

Tinuksx

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What Healing Looks Like

People always talk about healing but what does healing really look like ? You can organise workshops on healing, attend counselling and pray all day long but there is a load on the heart that could stick there like glue. I’m in a weird place where a lot of people expect me to be super sad because it’s been a year today since my mum passed away. Even though that experience was painful and sometimes it feels overwhelming to think of, I myself am shocked as to how people can touch where what seemed like nails at the time pierced deeply and I don’t feel pain. Here is how I deal with my loads in life.

1. PRAISE

Praise is one of the most underestimated and misunderstood activities in peoples lives. I woke up yesterday morning with a really strong urge to praise God. I’ve been a Christian for 2 and a half years now or so and I fell in love with praise only in December. Normally, praise is something I do because I have to but my Christmas experience in Nigeria changed my life. My step mum would lock herself in her study and morning and night she would praise God. This inspired me to really dig into praise and I would dance , I would shout, I would jump in the secret place. It’s crazy how I know how to dance when my friends are there but what about in the secret place? Sometimes when I sing on stage in service, I forget myself and just move like I do at home. It feels like release.

Why do I praise God?

Great is the Lord and most worthy of praise;

his greatness no one can fathom.

One generation commends your works to another;

they tell of your mighty acts.

They speak of the glorious splendor of your majesty—

and I will meditate on your wonderful works.”

Psalm 145:3-5

Prayer is fantastic but praying without praising is like a footballer trying to shoot the ball with no awareness of where the post is. You have to know the position and size of your post. Praise tells me how great my God- big enough to hold the oceans in his hand and for the clouds to be dust at his feet. It tells me the position of Jesus Christ who seated at the right hand of the throne of grace. He is merciful enough to forgive our sins and faithful to redeem sinners SO WE DONT STAY SINNERS but we are made new by his blood and spirit. I remember how high God is above my sin, my circumstance , the government , war, fear and any other thing that obstructs my vision.

Alright, this player is ready to shoot now.

2. I LIVE

I get to know people every day and I have an extroverted personality. Some people think living is going out to party or making a lot of money but there’s more to life than just that. I can’t just enjoy my life with basic natural things. I need life that is eternal with Jesus because that satisfies me. I live for Jesus. My heart is his. My life is his. He gives and he takes and I believe this is truth. He is my friend. He laid his life down for me before I knew I needed saving and he took up the role of a servant yet he called me friend. My response to his is to do the same. This is what friends do right ? We serve each other. As Jesus served me, even though I’m not even worth to touch him, I’ll serve him too every day by laying down my own life. He is the love of my life and my peace, my joy, my hope, my strength, my creativity is all found in him. You know what the beautiful thing is? He chose me to be loved and he gives me life from his love. This reminds me I’m never lacking. When I feel like I don’t have any reason to live, I know this is a lie from the enemy and I seek truth in the words of my lover Jesus who I was made through so that I could be his compadre for eternity. Since the whole bible is written by his spirit, I use his words to pray and I meditate on them because they draw me closer to him.

Not only do I read his word, I have to act on it. Players, if you know where the post is and that it’s in a perfect position for you to shoot your life and it’s prayers in, kick the ball!

What does living look like to you?

I’ve been reading this book called ‘Strengthening Yourself In The Lord’ and in one section it talks about testimonies. Testimony means ‘do again’ and God told us that we inherit every testimony of God. WOW! That means everything God has done in the lives of His Church (the people of God ), you inherit it. Some of you come from families with messy history. Unfortunately I do to but thankfully when I gave my life to Jesus I inherited his family history. Everything God has done for his people whether healing people with handkerchiefs or saving, delivering from addictions, parting seas into two, causing barren women to conceive, giving knowledge to the clueless, it’s all my family history now.

When I am ready to shoot my ball, these are the things I meditate on. I meditate on the testimonies and how amazing the works of God are but more so , how he can DO IT AGAIN. This way when i pray, I know that there is more than just the average everyday expectation. I’ve seen people healed when I laid hands on them. I have been delivered from pain and led people in pain to places of healing. I have seen restoration in my own life. I have seen my greed turn to kindness. I have seen addicts delivered. I have seen God provide supernaturally and more by HIS GRACE and by the Holy Spirit who is God that lives in me. He works through me like a vessel. For the things I haven’t seen, I keep believing because faith is not about what you see but what your heart believes and my heart believes that Jesus can do all things. This is my declaration.

3. I SURRENDER

This is the last one because these are big topics. We can praise and live but what are we living for ? Rather, who are we living for? Do you know there is a part of the bible that says not everyone that says ‘Lord Lord’ will enter the kingdom of heaven. That means you can shoot but your ball was not really aimed at the post. It’s almost like this player spoken about in Matthew 7:21 is aiming for the crowd so that human beings would give him praise. What is human praise compared to Gods love? It’s dust.

When my mum died I had to do a different kind of surrender. I was already a Christian but I needed to take my idea of life and put it in the hands of God. This life is not my own. I don’t live for me , I live for Jesus. I don’t own anything. No one around me is mine or belongs to me.

Wow, that’s a hard blow to take, but it’s very true.

I surrender because it’s easier. That may sound contradicting to what some people tell you but surrender is easy. It’s easier on your heart. We are all human. We can’t carry loads because it makes us tired. It’s like working out with weights every second of every day. Surrender is easy. Strong legs are not half as strong to God as falling on your knees (Psalm 147:10-11). Repent. Lay down your life and pick up a new life. For my battered and beaten heart, Jesus offered me a new, righteous , pure and loving one. Fortunately, I was not foolish enough to refuse. He offers this to you too because you have not been put on this earth to let sin make a mockery of you, your destiny is to rule with Jesus and to live like a child placing your feet in his footsteps. Greater things are ahead of you. If you want to know Jesus, and don’t have a relationship with him, read this with me;

Hi Jesus

I don’t need to introduce myself because you know my name. I am a sinner because I don’t have a relationship with you.

I thought my life was okay but it’s passive without you.

I have heard that you are life itself and I repent for my sin.

Here is my load Lord because I am not strong enough to lift it. Here is my heart because I am not big enough to fix it.

I believe you are the only way to true life and you died on the cross so I can have no more nails. I believe you rose in victory from the grave so that death stays in the grave and the power of God has set me free. I accept you as my Lord by faith.

I come to your throne declaring that my old life has passed away and I am no longer a slave. I am new in you. No more religion. No more living for the world. No more fear. No more being a victim of pain. I surrender all you you.

You have all of me and I have life in you. Fill me with your Spirit. Thank you for calling me. Thank you for your blood. Thank you for your love.

There you go. Healing is not having it all figured out or constantly being an emotional wreck. As a matter of fact, healing has little to do with us but more to do with a shifted perspective on the person of God and living out faith in this character because his word says you are already healed. You can trust that he is faithful and he loves you.

Tinuksx

ROOTS PERFORMANCE- Broken Beauty Box 

Hey guys! I recently performed an event called Roots organised by the coalition for youth development and it was incredible. The whole event was organised to embrace Nigerian culture and empower the youth particularly artists. You can follow them @cyouthD on twitter or instagram. 

My performance was merely a glimpse of my experience growing up in Nigeria and how Christ has shaped my perspective of strength. I scratched it up on a Wednesday night for Saturday evening lol so I wasn’t that prepared but hey. Nigerians are known for their strength and it’s beautiful but we all for victims of trying to adhere so hard to a beauty box that we fail to submit to God to shape us. That’s the gist of this spoken word. Hope you love it and I’ll get an upload of the Beauty Beyond Mirrors talk I did a few weeks ago as soon as I can xxx

NEW MUSIC: Be Still

Hey guys! I know it’s been ages but I’ve been doing a lot more than I’ve been posting. This song is not actually new but it is newly finished. I started writing Be Still in summer of 2016 and I was having a difficult time hearing God’s voice in the midst of circumstances with my family. I abandoned it and sang a bit of it toMitchell( my ever so talented sister friend) and she got on the guitar so a song that took me ages to figure out was finished in 5 minutes. God is known as ‘Jehovah Shalom’ which means ‘God is peace’. I love this name of God because it just draws me into awe of God. In Nehemiah it says that the clouds are dust at God’s feet yet these same clouds are what we admire with such awe. How much more our God? He is so mighty yet he bothers to stretch out his hand to us and I love it. This song Be Still is one of many that just calls God’s people to chill and enjoy the beauty of a powerful yet loving God. I pray it speaks to your heart. 

NEW THING ALERT 

It’s been a minute! Life has been in the way but hey, even if I’m not making much right now I need to inform you about my friend who is doing bits for God with her new YouTube page. Check out this new short movie / poem. I know you’ll enjoy it xxx. Follow her on twitter and insta @mitchthepoet 

The Return of TinuksTalks

Hello Hello

I feel like a TinuksTalks video has been long overdue so before you guys forget my face, here’s some truth about what i’ve been learning in terms of just living life fully and joyfully. I have been so inspired lately to carry on all that i started in faith so here we go! I’m a bit rusty but enjoy ❤

 

Get To Know Me Tag

Hey!

do you guys like the new Theme Song? Comment and tell me what you think. I had to make some changes but I like this song and it works so I thought why not. I decided to do a get to know me tag just to share a bit about me and have a more personal feel to the site. There are random facts, common things and spiritual facts but it’s all just bits and bobs to know a bit about the ‘girl behind the camera’ so to speak. I’m super-excited to share more with you guys and i hope you enjoy the video!

Thank you ❤

Radical Conversions- YOU HAVE TO WATCH THIS

 

If you haven’t already noticed, I love testimonies. I love hearing people testify about what God has done in their lives in any way and I particularly love this one. Roman Gutierrez had many issues; drugs, violence, his home but he realised that the main issue was his heart. Christ does not merely deal with the physical aspects of our lives but performs a circumcision of the heart (Romans 2: 29) which hosts the Spirit. Physical circumcision in the bible was done to make a covenant with God in the flesh as Abraham did in Genesis 17:9-14. This is nothing compared to a circumcision of the heart which is a permanent transformation of the heart that involves a change by the Spirit. The importance of faith is emphasised so much in the scripture as it is the beginning of a circumcision of the heart. Abraham received the promises of God because of the decision he made in his heart to obey God. Similarly, we have to decide in our hearts to love God and ask him to fill us with faith in his promises before there is a physical manifestation in our lives. Roman spent years of his life in bondage because of the pain inflicted on his life, but we thank God for the fact that there is no heart that cannot be circumcised because God’s love is more powerful than any and every chain that binds us in captivity. I hope you’re inspired by this and have a revelation that it is not church attendance or the sinner’s prayer that saved but change in your life doesn’t start until you call out for that divine transformation to take place as a result of inviting Jesus Christ to live in you. Only then can we really understand the true meaning of life, that we are born to serve as Roman experienced trials to be able to share the glory and wonder of God.

Yahweh is his name: CALL unto me, and I WILL ANSWER you and I will you the great and unsearchable things you do not know.” Jeremiah 33:2-3

The great ‘I AM‘ knows all your needs, your heart’s desires and even those things you don’t understand that will help you get through the trials of life with a transcendent peace. Just call with a heart of repentance, trusting that his timeless and sufficient nature will provide enough love and power to install in you a new heart and mind and start a path of supernatural transformation that will one day be brought into completion as we are glorified with our Saviour in our heaven our home. ❤

Amazing

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